Finding Time to Breathe
Ever feel like your life is moving too fast for you to catch up? Lately, I’ve had fleeting glances of that, mixed with a bit of helplessness. I like to be in control of my present, and to know what’s going to happen in my future. But when I catch a moment to think, it’s like an overload - too many things to think about, too many things to shift over in my head. It’s been hard over the last few weeks to be traveling so much (San Francisco, LA and Danver in the last 3 weeks) while there were so many other things going on in my life, like purchasing the house, work to do at the office, paying bills, moving in, social activities, eye surgery, etc. Not that I’m complaining, but I’d love to just have a moment to take a deep breath, let it out, and just rest and relax. Life right now has been a mix of uncertainty, stress, happiness, excitedness, being overwhelmed, worrying about other people’s problems, stress and confusion. I’ve been trying to get a balance of everything, but juggling it all is starting to wear on me. I’m almost missing those 2 1/2 hour commutes to Thousand Oaks. I had a lot of thinking time then!
Being back at work is so crazy for me. I don’t know where to start, what to do. I’m so behind with some things, and I think I’ve lost my direction. I just need to regroup and get back on my feet again. There are many challenges that I’ll be facing in my future, but I just need to keep my wits about me and I should be ok. I’ve been gone so long and missed so much I feel a little out of it.
I actually had a much longer, much more enlightening post, but my comp died for some weird reason.
Well, at least I’m sleeping in my own house tonight!!!
*sleepy*
Meditation and a centering practice might help
Aww Yano, its called “Being so far behind that you think you are first”.
Hang in there and just take one thing at a time. It will all get done sometime. People and things will just have to wait. If they don’t like it TOO BAD! 
You have had one hell of a year. So many big changes, some wonderful, some very difficult. You have every right to feel exhausted!
Hope things calm down for you soon. Being in your very own home should go a long way!
I hope you can find time for yourself. It’s so important that you do that. As Noelle said you have had more changes in the last year than most of us. Do what you can, no one should ask more of you than that.
And in the middle of all that, isn’t it so helpful to have your friends IMing you and complaining about THEIR stupid problems?
Everything is going to get better. Now that you’re in one place it will take some time to settle in, but it will happen.
Life, comes at you at you in full speed when you’re running on empty… I try and hold tight to something my mom told me when i was little ” God will never give us anything that we cannot handle.” when things are happening it’s hard to see that in the end we really can endure. I find comfort in knowing that i’m not the only one who feels overwhelmed at times, confused, worried, stressed etc….. we all find ourselves on the same boat everynow and then…. keep your head up ” SMILE”