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Over the last couple weeks, every time I would see that day's date I would get a nagging feeling that there was a special occasion coming up, that there was a birthday that I needed to celebrate or something. I knew that Marilyn and Vern's birthday were on their way, but there was still that feeling that wouldn't go away...there was a special day coming and I didn't want to miss it. Yesterday night (well, actually early this morning) I was writing out some checks (yes, I still write checks) and I put in today's date, and it hit me like a brick. Today would have been my mother's 63rd birthday.
I felt a little bad that it took me so long to realize it, even though for weeks I had a feeling it was coming. Are memories of her starting to fade? Have I become so involved in my crazy little life that I had almost forgotten about her?
Nah, I still think about her constantly, I'm just horrible with birthdays. But I did feel a twinge of guilt. If she had still been alive and I had done this I would have been in big trouble because I'd be racing around to find a gift for her.
It's amazing how much our lives have changed since she's been gone. Babies have been born, people have gotten married, graduated from school, moving on with their lives. But all of us remember her in our own way, from promises we made to her on her deathbed left unfulfilled (you know who you are) to lighting a candle in her memory at a wedding...she's still a big part of our lives.
So happy birthday, Mommy, up there in heaven making Benjamin laugh and giggle when we aren't there...
...and before you mention it, yes, I, too, wondered what the hell is going on with that doll's legs. I have no idea!
Posted by Yano at August 14, 2006 08:43 AMHappy Birthday Tita!!!!
Posted by: Shannon on August 14, 2006 11:35 AMtwo things:
1. your son looks like you :)
2. that doll in the background is scary
Posted by: on August 14, 2006 11:38 AMhappy birthday, mommy cris!
i was at the bookstore today and this lady asked me what day it was...i said the date out loud and just froze. i thought about mommy for a little bit...
hey, i was at the bookstore getting books for school...see! i'm being a good girl...=P
Posted by: marilyn on August 14, 2006 01:01 PMYea... I remembered this morning when my mom reminded me... heh... i'm bad with birthdays too sometimes.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY CRIS! =)
Posted by: bumblebootie on August 14, 2006 02:39 PMI do hope there are birthday cakes and candles in heaven.
Best birthday wishes up through the clouds to Yano's mom!
And yeah, I have to agree about the doll. But I understand. I had plenty of scary dolls like that when I was young. ...Matter of fact, my grandmother made me a home made doll once that had a mouth sewn to accept a real pacifier. So it had a permanent freaked out expression and its mouth stayed in a huge shape of an "o." That doll would make a great blog post someday.
Yano - you have a very slick blog.
Posted by: Espresso Bean :o) on August 14, 2006 08:45 PMOh wow, prayers and best wishes for both your mom in Heaven and your family. How old were you when you lost her?
This is only my second visit to your site in the last month or two. I'm hoping to catch up in your archives over the next few days - so much going on!!!!
Posted by: Jennifer on August 15, 2006 12:22 AMY'know, I didn't even notice that doll until you mentioned it. :P
Posted by: Marie on August 15, 2006 07:04 PM
