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Today is our second wedding anniversary, and for the second year in a row, I won't see my husband. Maybe if I'm lucky I'll see him right before midnight when my plane lands, but I'm not holding my breath.
Actually, this year, I was supposed to be home for our anniversary. But life likes to beat you on the head when you start putting your head in the clouds and make *gasp* plans, so it seems that once again, I'll be heading out to a city I will not speak of. I'm not in the best moods, far from being in any sort of mood to talk to anyone. I no longer want to talk about what I should do or what I should say or why I'm still where I'm at. All that was running through my head yesterday, and today, I'll only be thinking one thing:
I miss Dave.
I'm tired of all my travel drama, aren't you? I know, I know, I could have said 'no', but anyone who knows me knows it's not as easy as that.
Anyway, a couple honorable mentions before I go on with the rest of my post:
Sam B - I'm sorry for leaving you on the street talking to yourself. At least I gave you fair warning that I was leaving. I just didn't want to talk about it anymore, much less have someone question why I'm doing what I'm doing. I also apologize for the nasty things I said before I left. I know it's not *you*. You were just trying to help and understand.
Sammy Joe - Thank you so much for answering all my questions, giving me advice and calming me down. I'm so happy we've kept in touch, especially now. You're awesome! You've helped me believe that things can happen, that my life is in my hands and I don't have to be afraid of what lies ahead. I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and people like me, dammit!
There were others I talked to today that lent an open ear, and I thank you all.
But the #1 person that I need to thank is Dave. Not just for being so understanding about me not being here today, but throughout all this craziness that's been happening in my life, he's been there for me. It's not easy being the husband that's left alone all the time, but he's supported me through it all. I'm such a lucky girl to be married to such a great guy!
These last two years have been incredible. We've been growing together and although there have been occasional bumps in the road, we've come to learn how to better understand each other. Sometimes I find it so hard to believe that I'd found someone like dave, much less married him. We're so incredibly different, yet we fit so well together. Sure, we may fight over the remote everyone once in a while, or who is supposed to do what chores...but in the end, we make it work, and we make it work well. We are so full of love for each other it's hard to put into words - well, words that wouldn't make everyone reading this throw up from all the sugary cheesey sweetness of it.
It's hard to believe that its been two whole years, time has really flown by and so much has happened in our lives, but it seems just like yesterday I was standing in the back of the church getting teary eyed when I saw Dave near the altar waiting for me. *sigh*
So happy anniversary Dave, I'm sorry I'm not home but every minute I'm away I'll be thinking of you.
*cries*
Posted by Yano at August 23, 2005 12:34 AMHappy Anniversary to you both!! I only hope that all the personal sacrifices you make for work don't go unnoticed!!
Posted by: Marky Mark on August 23, 2005 02:58 AMWhy is it when you have a bad day and you are at your snarkiest, it is always right after you come back from a beautiful vacation? That happens to me too. I'm sorry you and dave won't be together on your special day. :( Wow two years! I can't beileve I have been coming to your blog for 2 years! I was here when you got married!
Here is something to think about. I don't know what the situation is, but it sounds like things in life might be taking over. When you get back from your trip, you might want to sit in a quiet place and think about all the pros and cons of what's going on. Think about the situation and ask it "What have you done for ME lately?" You may need to put it up on an imanginary shelf and say to yourself, "I taking control, you aren't going to make me snarky anymore." ;) Hang in there sweetie! Sending much happiness to both you and Dave. HUGS
Posted by: Pridey on August 23, 2005 05:38 AMhappy anniversary christine and dave
Posted by: Shannon on August 23, 2005 07:29 AMHappy Anniversary Christine and Dave. I know it must be hard to be away from each other on such a special day but you have so much love in your heart for each other and that should give you some comfort.
Make a day this weekend a special time just for the two of you.
Posted by: Sue on August 23, 2005 08:33 AMHfappy Anniversary you two :) I'm with Pridey that you might want to sit down and see where you're going. Marriage is hard enough when you're together most of the time. That said it looks like you choose a winner Christine :) Keep the home fires burning while your hearts are yearning.....
Posted by: SusanG on August 23, 2005 09:49 AMHappy anniversary -- I can't believe it's been 2 years already... man, I remember the engagement stories!
Hope when you and Dave do get to celebrate that you have a very happy one.
Posted by: noelle on August 23, 2005 10:44 AMDon't worry, I frequently like to talk to myself walking down Michigan Avenue, along with the bumbs and crazy people.
Happy Anniversary! You and Dave will make it though this and figure out what's best for both of you. No worries!
Posted by: Sam on August 23, 2005 11:19 AMawww... happy anniversary! *hugs*
Posted by: BUMBLEBOOTIE on August 23, 2005 11:32 AMThat was two years ago already?? Wow! Happy Anniversary to you two!
(I'm with Marky... I hope your sacrifices don't go unnoticed.. but if they are.. .maybe it's time to change things..)
Posted by: Mike on August 23, 2005 11:59 AMSniff, sniff, happy anniversary to Yano and Dave! (it's my anniversary today too!) You will have 50 more annivesaries to spend with each other!!
Posted by: Valerie on August 23, 2005 11:59 AMSniff, sniff, happy anniversary to Yano and Dave! (it's my anniversary today too!) You will have 50 more anniversaries to spend with each other!!
Posted by: Valerie on August 23, 2005 12:00 PMHappy Anniversary, time really does fly. And here's to many, many more anniversaries.
Posted by: Denise B on August 23, 2005 01:11 PMHappy Anniversary you two!
Posted by: Rod on August 23, 2005 01:43 PMHappy Happy Happy....Haaaappppy Anniversary!!!!!......and many moooorrrre
Posted by: Jerry on August 23, 2005 04:33 PMHappy Anniversary to both of you!
Posted by: Cathy on August 23, 2005 06:43 PMHappy Anniversary, Christine and Dave!
I hope you find some peace/balance with your work situation, whatever you have to do to get there.
Posted by: Trisha on August 23, 2005 08:02 PMThere..there.. I'm sure he undestand. Happy Anniversary and many more to come!
Posted by: val on August 23, 2005 11:34 PMI'm always late to the party. In fact, I missed the party altogether because it's now 12:30 and your anniversary is over. Oh wait...it's an hour earlier in Chicago (official site of your wedding), so I made it under the wire!
I know things haven't been so rosy for you lately and you're probably sick of hearing everyone's advice, but I'm going to give you some anyway. When you're away and feeling crappy, try to remind yourself that at least when you return home there will be someone waiting for you who is happy to see you. Someone you love, who loves you back. Some of us don't have that, and maybe never will. Don't take it for granted.
Ok, speech over. Oh. One more thing. Start looking for a freaking new job!
Happy Anniversay!!
Posted by: Denizzy on August 23, 2005 11:52 PMhappy anniversary to the both of you!! :) WOOOHOOOO
Posted by: suki on August 24, 2005 12:40 AMI'm late in wishing you happy anniversary, but what I've told other couoples is that you can celebrate not just your wedding, but your marriage, any time you want. Also I agree with Denizzy... some of us don't have that. Be happy, you are very fortunate to have so much love in your life from Dave, family, and friends.
Posted by: Linda J. on August 26, 2005 12:01 AMI'm so late. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
Posted by: chica on August 28, 2005 04:18 PM
