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So my dad is here to come along with us during our trek home. It's always nice to see my dad, though I really with I could have given him a tour of Long Beach and the surrounding areas.
Things are still a bit weird between us, that sort of uncomfortability when you are talking but there's something under the surface that you know is there, but don't want to mention. I have him a hug and kiss when he came in, and asked him how he was, to which he replied, 'Really good, and not really good.' I guess that could be said of the whole family. We're doing good, but not good. I love seeing my dad, but it's also a reminder of my mom. And I'm sure its the same way with him.
So Father's day is coming up. Haven't bought a card or anything yet...hopefully I can get one last minute. My dad never really believed in Father's day, saying that he should be appreciated EVERY day, not just one day of the year. But this year he's making a fuss over it. Probably because Mother's Day was so crappy for all of us. Me and Fatima called him from the zoo last Sunday, and screamed 'Happy Father's Day' into his voicemail. He called back later to tell us that it's next week. Oops.
It'll be weird to be in the car with my dad for 3 days. In a way I want to talk about my mom, in a way I don't. And I can't really bear crying in front of my dad. I'm too tough for that. OK. I'm not.
I got to take my dad to one of my favorite places yesterday. Guess where?!?! L&L Barbecue! Hahaha. I'm a regular there now. They know my order.
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To lighten the mood, I was quickly brushing my teeth yesterday. Don't know why I was in a hurry. My hand slipped and my toothbrush flew out of my mouth and hit me in the eye. Other than the stinging of the toothpaste in my eye and my toothpaste mascara, I'm ok. But it was pretty funny to look in the mirror and see the toothpaste all over my face.
Posted by Yano at June 18, 2004 04:02 PMhiya girly! glad to hear you'll be back home real soon. as for the drive with your daddy thats a tough one.but i think that you need to talk about your mom and i'm sure that your dad wants to as well. as hard as it will be i think it would help the both of ya..it's one of those walls you just gotta tear down. when my dad's two brother's passed away 3 years ago it was a very emotional and tense situation.my dad has never been a sit down and lets talk and cry type of guy. i was always afraid to talk about certain things pertaining to my uncles in fear of how he'd react etc. once i made the move i found that he was waitin' for someone to talk to as well. we both needed closure and comfort. talkin' is good medicine, sometimes the best medicine. it's still a very touchy situation but at least we now know that we can confide somewhat in each other. i'd like to say that this has allowed him to really open up and be more of a communicator, it hasn't yet but i'm still sayin' my prayers... well sorry for all the ramblin' take care and have a safe trip home....see when you get back....**muuuaaaahhh**
Posted by: Shannon on June 18, 2004 04:22 PMhiya girly! glad to hear you'll be back home real soon. as for the drive with your daddy thats a tough one.but i think that you need to talk about your mom and i'm sure that your dad wants to as well. as hard as it will be i think it would help the both of ya..it's one of those walls you just gotta tear down. when my dad's two brother's passed away 3 years ago it was a very emotional and tense situation.my dad has never been a sit down and lets talk and cry type of guy. i was always afraid to talk about certain things pertaining to my uncles in fear of how he'd react etc. once i made the move i found that he was waitin' for someone to talk to as well. we both needed closure and comfort. talkin' is good medicine, sometimes the best medicine. it's still a very touchy situation but at least we now know that we can confide somewhat in each other. i'd like to say that this has allowed him to really open up and be more of a communicator, it hasn't yet but i'm still sayin' my prayers... well sorry for all the ramblin' take care and have a safe trip home....see when you get back....**muuuaaaahhh**
Posted by: Shannon on June 18, 2004 04:22 PMhehehe... me & gi almost called our dads last weekend too.
anyhoo, have a safe drive home and i'll see ya when you get in. ^_^ love you lady! *muwah*
Posted by: bumblebootie on June 19, 2004 01:05 AM
