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Did you ever have one of those days that started out just fine, but then progressively just turned into a horrid mess of crap?
Sometimes I feel like my life is a set of dominoes that I set up, each one standing on its end. My goal is to put them all up and at the end, seeing the whole masterpiece flow down into beautiful patterns and feel a sense of pride. But once in a while, I make a bad move, either I do something stupid or I say something out of line, and its like hitting a domino on accident. So I'm frantically trying to stop everything I've built up from falling down prematurely. Sometimes I can, sometimes I mess it up even more by hitting other dominoes, leaving me to clean up multiple threads of my life. I can only hope that the whole thing doesn't fall down.
I don't know why I care so much about making other people happy. I want so much not to care, but I do. I want so much to be true to myself, but also to be true to those around me. Sometimes that isn't possible, but that fact can't get through my big fat head.
Maybe I just don't know what the hell I'm talking about.
When it rains, it pours. Time to bring out the umbrella.
My head is just spinning. My stomach is in knots. The dominoes are falling, falling.
Thank God Jen is here to keep me sane.
I'll shut up now.
Posted by Yano at March 30, 2004 09:25 PMhey christine... marian and I wanna plan a trip to come see you april 22-25... you available?
Posted by: Shannon on March 30, 2004 10:11 PMProbably seems like all the dominoes are falling... but they aren't. You just have to remember where the firewalls are. (Boy, talk about mixing metaphors!)
Big hugs... hope things look up soon.
Posted by: Noelle on March 31, 2004 06:36 AMYou have a strong foundation, so I bet you have more dominos up then you think. For the ones that are falling, maybe it's just a way to "re-design" them to be even better than they were before! Sometimes things get worse before better.
I hope things start looking up.
Posted by: Amy on March 31, 2004 08:55 AMI'm sorry you're feeling crazy. I hope I wasn't one of those dominos. Hugs.
Posted by: Melinda on March 31, 2004 09:06 AMI send you hugs my dear...take a deep breath or two. It'll work out, keep your head, chin out and eyes open. You've got us backin' you up sistah!
Posted by: Lara on April 1, 2004 07:45 PMI send you hugs my dear...take a deep breath or two. It'll work out, keep your head, chin out and eyes open. You've got us backin' you up sistah!
Posted by: Lara on April 1, 2004 07:45 PM