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As you can tell by the 4 posts I've made in the last 5 hours, I'm really bored. I'm sitting here in a HUGE hotel room with nothing to do, but I can't sleep. I always have problems sleeping on the road. I'm a bit homesick for my place in Long Beach and for Dave, and it doesn't make it any better that I don't really have too much interaction at the client I'm with right now, so for most of the day I'm just working by myself. It gets kind of lonely and makes me really restless. I feel like I'm starving for some sort of human interaction.
And for some reason there's some weird sinking feeling in my stomach. There's a lot of things going on in my life, some you know, some you don't. And when you're alone, you get a lot of time to think. I worry, I'm always worrying, anyone who knows me knows I constantly worry. I'm worried about my mom. I worry about being a good wife to Dave, affording a house next year, doing well at my client site, the US team going to South Korea, people I like not getting along, people not liking me for reason's I can't figure out, not being able to go home for Thanksgiving, losing my appetite, being away from the apartment all the time, being homesick for Chicago all the time, and more...there's a lot of stuff. I don't know why I let little things bother me and stress me out. I'm tired, and I'm worn out. There are a million things going through my mind right now. It's even worse because I don't have anyone to really interact with here.
I'm counting the seconds until the weekend. It can't come soon enough!
Posted by Yano at November 19, 2003 01:10 AMI like this writing by Mother Theresa :)
Sorry it didn't post...
http://www.sober.org/Theresa.html
Posted by: Lea on November 19, 2003 09:53 AMLea, I love that. Those are my words to live by and they have given me a ton of comfort during difficult times. Uh, not that I am any Mother Theresa. :-P
Your friends are here for you Christine! And those things (most of them) are hardly "little." There'd be something wrong with you if all that didn't get to you a bit.
Nobody is universally liked, but you come closer than anyone I know. If some people dislike you, maybe that says more about them than it does about you.
Posted by: Noelle on November 19, 2003 10:38 AMaww kiss-tine... i MISS you! keep yer chin up lady! love you! *muwah*
Posted by: bumblebootie on November 19, 2003 02:14 PMAww Yano, I'm sorry you are feeling down. Noelle is right, listen to her she is a smart lady. Oh and just for the record, I like you because you make me laugh :D And I have never met you. That's got to mean something! :D
Posted by: Pridey on November 19, 2003 04:22 PMAwww girl, take care. I send ya big *hugs*. I like ya lots too and the Midwest misses you right back!!! I will say prayers for you & the people you are worried about.
Posted by: Lara on November 19, 2003 04:31 PMoh, Christine...I hope you're feeling better now...some things in life we can control, some things we can't...and sometimes it's a neverending struggle to separate the two.
Posted by: SarahGillian on November 19, 2003 11:10 PM
