It's my own fault, no one is to blame. I've been so busy, so involved with my own dramas and work and other things, I really haven't had time to watch over her, or pay much attention to her. I guess a little part of me thought that she would always be around. I took her for granted. I never realized what she meant to me.

I don't even know when she left. It could have been at Marquette, It could have happened after I worked out. Or sometime during the grocery strike in California. All I know is that she's gone. I got home from Marquette, Dave said, "Where is she?", and I looked, and she wasn't there. And I don't know if she's coming back. She never even said goodbye.

Yes. I'm being dramatic.

Yes. I'm talking about JLo. My ass. She's gone!!

In all seriousness, because of a lot of factors in the last couple weeks, I really haven't had much of an appetite (I know, surprising) or been too busy or stressed to eat. I knew that I had been losing weight, but I never really noticed that I was losing ass inches. Since the wedding, I've lost about 12 pounds, and it looks like it's all come from my ass. I liked my ass. We were good friends. We hung out all the time. She helped me make friends. She even has her own fan club. My husband is the fan club president. I have no idea how it disappeared so fast, but it did, and I hate it. It's not just smaller, it's flat. My pants are all saggy in the ass. It's so strange! How could this happen? How could I have missed it?

So I've been loading up on In and Out and Outback Steakhouse to bring her back.

Please come back, my friend. I miss you...

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In other news, I had some great talks today and yesterday. I don't normally use the phone for communication anymore, but I was on the phone with a good friend yesterday, and before I knew it, 4 hours passed by. I don't even remember the last time I was on the phone that long! And today, I was on the phone with the guys from work. I miss those guys so much, they totally cracked me up. Sometimes I wish I was still in the office again, because I don't really have anyone to talk to when I work at home.

I'm still in Buffalo. Blah. At least I've got cool clients. We had an awesome long lunch today and we talked about radiation from the manufacturing of H-Bombs and the racial profiling of black men in parking lots wearing Ponderosa uniforms. Oh yeah, Buffalo isn't too diverse. I think I could very well be the only Asian person in a 10 mile radius. But that's ok. The food here is awesome. But it's raining here, and it's cold.

I'm starting to get home sick for Long Beach!!!

Posted by Yano at November 11, 2003 05:48 PM

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