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You know, I have no problem posting on my blog for all the internet to see that my mom is in the hospital, and my fears and feelings about the situation. You all know that. I can do that, but it's almost impossible for me to call my 'real life' friends (for lack of a better term) and tell them what's going on. What do I say? "Hey, I'm back in town because my mom's in the hospital." I dunno, it just doesn't feel right.
So I haven't called my friends to tell them that I'm home. Didn't call to tell them what's been going on. Sure, some of them know who have stumbled onto this blog from wherever, but for some reason, I like to keep my internet life and my private life separate. And it's a lot easier to talk about it in my internet life, than it is to the tangible people around me. I just don't know how to bring it up. I just don't know what to say.
Pretty ironic considering the volumes that I write here, eh?
But my friend Jen called today, and left a pretty long voicemail asking what's been going on. However, I only understood a third of it since her phone was cutting out. I called back and left a message telling her a bit of what's been going on, and my mom's hospital room number, and told her to call me back.
But I was still surprised to see her come and visit my mom. It was great to see her again, and she brought us Capri Sun and Cubs Cupcakes (Cubcakes, har har.) I've had my wedding pics at the hospital for visitors to look at, and me and Jen had a great time going through the pics and reliving the day. We moved over to the family room to watch the game and let my mom get a little rest.
I was even more surprised to see my friend Gil come. There was a summer when it was just the three of us - Jen, Gil and me, going out together all the time, and it was nice to be the three of us once again. I haven't laughed like that in a long time. It was nice to have them come, and I miss hanging out with my friends like that. Having them come and visit meant a lot to me.
So I'm lucky. Lucky to have so many wonderful people around to support me and my family...
Mom's doing better, her breathing is easier and she could be up and walking on her own in a couple days.
And howabout that Cubs game? The Marlins got SCHPANKED, baby!
Posted by Yano at October 8, 2003 09:28 PMi totally get you with expressing yourself through your blog and not having any problems with it. i guess you don't see the initial reaction - the eyes looking into your eyes. it's just you and your computer and you're talking into a vast of nothingness... hoping that someone (or many someones) understands what you're saying... or reading it, for that matter.
sometimes i expect my "real life" friends to be reading my blog already, catching up, so i don't have to speak about it again... that could be why it's easier to dish it out here... it's definitely easier for me. it's my first outlet, if i haven't already shared it with my husband.
i'm glad your mom will be on her two feet soon! yippee!
Posted by: kathy on October 9, 2003 02:14 PM
