You know, I don't usually post in the heat of anger, but considering that lately I really haven't given a fuck about what people think, you know, I'll just shoot out my piehole for a bit and vent. Chances are, I'm not actually upset about this subject and am just displacing my anger, stress, and neuroticism onto the first thing that pisses me off.

Anyway, I love a girl named Noe11e. Why? Hmm...let's go over it...

- With the amazing Todd she updates the OhnoZone as much as she can. Sure, it's not every day. Sure, it's not everything that's sent to her. Sure, she posts stuff that isn't Apolo related. But shit, show me another fan site that is updated more often than the OZ and I'll eat my words. Show me another BLOG that is updated more than the OZ (other than mine). If you have a blog, you know it's not an easy thing to update it every day, especially when it comes to having actual content. Unless you have a lot of free time on your hands, or if you don't sleep at night. (see timestamp below to see which category I'm in) But I know that Noe11e has a job, and it's a tough ass job that's just as stressful as my own. In a way, she's got two jobs.

- She has to play referee between so many different groups of people. I graduated highschool 10 years ago, but sometimes, I feel like I'm right back into it again. As some of you may know, I LOATHED highschool. She tries to be diplomatic. She tries not to take anything personally. But sometimes, she gets trounced on by everyone for taking sides. She's not taking sides. She's just trying to maintain sanity.

- She doesn't let the bad things bother her. I see all this shit written about her, whispered about her, and she knows that it's all going down, but she makes it seem like it doesn't bother her. But I'm sure a little of it does. But she keeps a cool head when I would have just flamed people about it. I admire her for that. But I don't understand what she had done to get the animosity that I have so often seen directed towards her. Maybe I'm making a big deal of things, but I don't think that I am.

- Noe11e is not a mean person. She is not a selfish person. She is not a scheming person. She is not planning on taking over the short track world (that's MY plan, DUH). She takes the high road. She has a good heart. She has a tough exterior, but she's still has feelings. Words still hurt.

- Noe11e LOVES short track. Now there's nothing wrong with having a favorite skater. I have one. Or two. Or three. But I also love the sport. And I love talking about the sport. Noe11e is one of the few people who I can talk about the sport with. The skaters, the competitions, the future. Though our political views about short track may differ, she accepts my position, and it hasn't affected our friendship. Political views aside, it's short track that counts.

- People love to kiss Noe11e's ass on the OZ. Outside of that, well, it's another story. Makes me wonder if people know if Yuki visits the site...

- There are so many people who through Noe11e's efforts were able to meet Apolo, either by her posting an appearance on the OZ, or by being at an Apolo appearance and getting him to do group pictures.

The girl works hard. And sometimes, people expect so much from her. They fail to realize that like the rest of us, she has a life. She has stresses, she has drama in her own life, she has things to do, she has priorities.

I mentioned to Noe11e that I was going to post something, and she told me not to because I'll regret it later. I might. But I think it just needs to be aired what Noe11e does for our community.

She's gotten a lot of beating lately, in a lot of different ways.

You know, come to think of it, I may not know what the hell I'm talking about. It's two o'clock in the morning, and I haven't had any sleep over the last week, so I could be delirious. I could be making this up all in my head. This isn't a slam on anyone - it's more of a way for me to show you all that she does without asking for anything in return. That even though the last couple weeks have been tough, her hard work has been appreciated. That all the stress is worth something. That there are, and always will be, people out there that will care about her and love her.

Thanks for being my friend, Noe11e.

Posted by Yano at August 5, 2003 01:35 AM

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