Well, I guess I can share with you all what's been up with me lately.

Several years ago, my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. After operations, chemotherapy, drugs and a lot of inner strength, she made it through. Of course, it was a difficult time for her, and our whole family. But she persevered. Over the past couple months, my mother had a very bad cold, which produced this AWFUL cough. After going to the doctor a couple times, going in for tests and such, earlier this week it was revealed that the cancer had moved to her lungs. Luckily, it's in the early stages. The doctors are very optimistic. But it's still hard, you know? She already went through all that crap, and she's got to go through it again? So it's been a little hard on the family, and we're each dealing with it in different ways. When things like this happen, your mind gets full of 'what if?s' and about how unfair life seems to be. And all the miniscule things that you had worried about in the last couple months seem completely insignificant, and when you hear other people complaining about their problems, you almost want to yell in their faces how lucky they actually have it. I was on such an emotional roller coaster over the past couple days. On Thursday I had gone to lunch a couple of the guys and I burst out crying in the middle of the food court. Poor things didn't know what hit 'em. I try to keep myself busy, so I can't stop and dwell on it. I've been teetering between being in an awful, bitchy mood and really quiet and introspective. But I think my mom's attitude has really helped us all. She's being really strong, and really positive about everything. I really admire her for it. So the best I can do right now is help out as much as I can around the house, and give her a lot of hugs and 'I love you's. It helped a lot the last time.

And so today, I'm just hanging at home with my mom. Tried to keep myself busy by rearranging and sorting out my comic book collection and watching 'American Pie 2'. Which was really funny because my mom came by and started watching it with me, and it's really hard to explain the humor of the movie to her. Note: Never watch a man pee on another man's head when your mom is in the room. She just won't get it. And we've had people coming all day visiting and seeing how my mom is doing. It's really nice, but I know that she could probably use the rest, too. But it's really heart warming to see her best friends come by and sit around her and talk.

Well, I guess that's it in a nutshell...Thanks for everyone's support. Right now, I'm going to finish sorting my comics out. And I'm patiently waiting for Marian and Derrick to bring me my White Castle. Diet be damned. I need comfort food. I'll just hold my breath in that bridesmaid dress!

Posted by Yano at August 24, 2002 06:22 PM